why does it hurt?

Saturday me and my boyfriend broke up and it was because of all the fighting and controlling stuff that was going on. After three tries and fails, it went down for real. Why does it hurt when we where fighting almost every day? Why do i cry when It is better of this way? How do you stop this feelings coming back at you, that makes you think about sleeping close to someone? Is there something that can make you feel less empty inside, I feel sick, I feel so down.. No one is near to cheer me up, I could really use a nice friendly hug. But everyone is just to far away. Alone I have to fight my way back. Do I miss the caring and the fun, sleeping together and kiss and hug? Is that the only thing I miss? Or is it only because it was him? I can bearly eat or sleep, dream are haunting me, what can i do to forget? So i can grow strong again? So many questions and no one has the anwsers? Where do I belong? Where are my friends? When I am deep down below?
Who supports me and helps me get over it?

 

Why can't it be easy as Jason Derulo said: 

"I just wanna let you know that it gets better! You can decide you'r own destiny, you can overcome any pain with you'r own permission, you can be happy with you'r own permission!  It gets Better. There is a light at the end of the tunnel...."

<3 

summertime

I just love to watch the trees and the flowers as they grow faster then ever, they pop up everywhere and my heart gets filled with joy. I smile to my self as I am power walking in the neighborhood, and people look and wondering why i smile I think. Must look silly but I am so happy when spring starts and summer is about to blossom. Soon my birthday is coming up and I hope that I get some cash to a working mobile phone!! Cuz mine is about to give up completely! Well atleast I have uploaded my photos of the place I moved to as promissed<3

My place

moving friday!!

Im really excited! I will take photos and upload here so you can see the stuff I bought for the apartment. It is gonna look fabulouse when I am all done with it..<3<<33

Im so happy

I am moving next week, went to IKEA yesterday and got almost everything I needed for the apartment. It is going to be so fabulous when I am done with everything! I have a color theme for the whole place. You will get a taste when everything is done, but for now you just have to wait it out. I have been so busy that I forgot to write everything down, but here I am writing to let you know what I have been up too.

My boyfriend is going to move in and I'm so excited, I feel like I am going to explode with joy. Shouting it out on facebook and every other sites that I have. I am also going to get better at taking photos for my Dailybooth.com witch I haven't been uploading a picture or text on since.. I DONT KNOW. Thats bad.
So I am sorry for that.

Now I just hope that I get my mobile internet going so I can blog on my laptop at my new place.

And have you noticed? Spring is coming so fast, I feel the sun kiss my skin and I can't do anything but smile! A big white silly smile. People probably think I am crazy for smiling all the time but you have to feel it. Spring and Summer makes you happy, no cold or frustrating snow!! I hate snow! Next winter I will flee the country from the cold! To a nice warm place :D

<3

Spring is coming

I can feel it, when I standing there waiting for the buss to arrive, it burns my cheek. I have longed for the spring to enter this year! I really want some heat, and I want real heat, hot hot hot! I just had to take a picture of all the ducks that where crossing over the road, in a straight line. Well seems like the summer is going to start great and become great, I really hope so.... well see about that..

Eurovision

Melodifestivalen

It is very close between Eric Saade, Danny and the bitch Sanna. I really hope for Swingfly, Danny or Eric Saade! They are too good to not be going to eurovision! The passion Eric Saade lays on the stage! Horrible to get glass in the mouth one practice and then glass in the eyes this time! Poor him, but I love his addiction to the performance on stage! He need to do everything extra ordinary! <3

Well I hope they go to the top and Sanna can burn in hell, shit SONG :P

Comon Swingfly, Danny and Eric Saade :)
I have also seen Eric live from close :D